Not very inactive but still not writing as much as I usually do. This is caused by three factors really - I have less to write about, I have more to do at work and Design|mez. One more apparant reason than the other really but Design|mez is a huge project and you can check out my “visible progress” if you want to.
The main idea of the page is not only to be focusing on sales of a complete design or website but to approach customers from a level where we more or less meet half way, this is where the Articles will come in to place. I want to meet customers with guides and tips regarding webpages either if it’s regarding structure or the basic coding. In that we find a combination of a customer who is in the midst or planning on developing their own page and searching for ways of doing that. This means that the actual customer has a basic idea of what they want but they don’t really know how to make it. That’s where the sales pitch come in - rather than completely creating the webpage we intend to “push” them in the right direction or they simply say “Hey, can’t you do this?”.
Then you might ask why I want to do it in this specific way, which is rather simple to answer really - cost. It’s expensive to develop a web page and customers are constantly looking for a way to get it cheaper. So by getting customers who are somewhere between “I have an idea” to “I want this webpage” I can provide the actual service for a lower cost.
This being said, right now I’m in the midst of building my own little articles database so I have something right from the start. The idea is to be writing more and more articles partially as I learn more and partially as I see what kind of information is being read the most and what is being requested.
So there you have it. Aslo, feel free to provide me with some feedback on the “visual progress” of the actual page. 
I’m not a very physical person at all, meaning that I’d like to keep a distance between me and the people around me. But today, I feel huggy. No idea why, would’ve been nice tho’.
In the ideal scenario, there are two kinds of people - the “thinker” and the “do’er”. The “thinker” in this case is a planning creature, he spends all night planning on tomorrow and what he’s going to do but, in the end he only manages to actually do a very small piece of what he had planned. Then we have the “do’er” he goes to bed without a single though in mind and without any plans for the days that will follow so when he wakes up and just starts the day doing what he wants to or what he’s obligated to.
The big difference in these two persons is that the “thinker” with his whole day planned will come home the next day and feel like he wasn’t enough or that he didn’t manage to do all the things he had planned. This might grow on his conceus a bit since well, he had planned them. The “do’er” on the other hand will come home after a day without any plans at all and feel like he accomplished alot even though he didn’t do more or even did less than the “thinker”, but since he didn’t make any plans at all he feels satisfied and proud over himself that he actually managed to pull all of those things off.
I can only begin to count all the times I’ve come home from work and felt like I’ve could’ve done more or could’ve done something better, not that it’s strange at all to have those feelings. There’s always something that could’ve been done better and there most certainly is something more that could’ve been done at all in the first place.
My job is different now, I don’t think about it after I’ve come home. Even if I miss being that dedicated to my job I’ve also come to appriciate the fact that I don’t feel like I have to think about it, or not that I have to think about it more that I did think about it.
My overall situation is different now, I actually can do whatever the fuck I want to now. Instead of being looked in my room infront of the computer. Offcourse, the computer is still one of my biggest interests so I still spend alot of time by it, but far from how much I used to do.
I feel alot better now, I actually enjoy my life much more now and I feel better about myself. I’ve started to think alot less than I used to and I’ve started to do more. With the appendice above I guess it’s only logical.
Another week comming to an end and not much written in a very loong time. Feels boring to say that I haven’t had anything to write about because I’ve had plenty of ideas to write down. In fact, I’ve felt really creative the past few weeks but when I sit down and actually try to do something with it it just either turns out to be a crappy idea or I loose my trail of thought in the midst of creating it.
I feel bad about it because I really need to finish more of my projects before I give up on them, which does result in me getting a bad conseous over the unfinished projects namely forcing me to try and finish them before I start digging into something new.
But anyway i announced earlier that there was going to be some changes made with this domain, however it was cut off by Tekvall.se squeezing in and making me put it on the shelf. Now I’ve started to design the layout of the new page which you will be greeted by when you visit mez.nu it will be more emphasis on Design|mez rather than my own blog.
Design|mez.nu is going to be a huge project for me since I’m not only going to create a portfolio, I’m going to create a webdesign portal. I won’t releive any details about it just yet but it will take a while before it’s completely done.
I’ve also made up my mind about getting a tattoo, where it will be placed and what it will say. But more on that when I’ve really made up my mind about it, I have two ideas on what to do with my forearms and I have to decide which… or just do them both. Gah! To many choices.
My family is in here for the weekend aswell and they are going to visit me tonight and bring along alot of my stuff that has been standing around in my mothers basement for the past three years. Some things I’ve missed and alot of things that I didn’t even know I had. It’s good anyway, gonna feel more like home once I get more of my stuff.
Now I got to get back to work! I still haven’t gotten any spontanious visits, so shame on you!
Freak? You’ve been developed for the simple purpose of being the moronic icon of the entire human race. From the beginning we were all fish or something. Then the fish mated with another fish and had alittle retard baby that could breath. Later that retard baby mated with another retard baby and gave birth to yet another retard fish that suddenly decided to crawl on to land where he mated with a frog or something and gave birth to yet another retard baby. Well, you know the rest of the story. Evolution is a interesting thing, nature has a interesting way turning the tables around.
In this prospect you’re a retard, an accident. So forget the freak - we’re all just nature.
..and kicking. I’ve been quite for some time mainly because I’m trying to top of the last post with a huge cherry - it’s comming.
In other it hasn’t really happened that much apart from working and basically just living in my appartment. I’ve solved the “I HAVE ANOTHER ROOM”-issue by moving my bed there and making the other room the livingroom with a couch, computer and soon a TV. So now I feel like I’m atleast using both rooms and not just letting them gather dust.
The biggest problem though is that the room that is best suited as living room is alot darker (since it only has one window) than the other making the other room rather hard to fall asleep in - especially when working nights and going to sleep at about 9-10 am.
I’m enjoying the appartment a whole lot, I know that I’ve said it before but I think that it deserves to be said a coupple more times. The best of all is that just outside the door is the city.
Well, that’s it for now. Come over for a beer sometime!
I have blown so many things out of proportions almost all my life. I’ve almost always had problems seeing things for what they really are and my mind often trips on its own toes while breaking apart and analyzing it. What have come out of this is the lack of a sense of appriciation for what actually does happend, appriciating it for what it is instead of wondering what it could’ve been.
People tell me to be less pessimistic, but all I’m doing is trying real hard to be realistic. The realism though is in a sense made up of topics with no real truth lying behind them. It’s like curtans hanging on a blank wall, the expected window on the other side is nowhere to be found and when you look closer all that you see is rugged paint job cowering a brick wall or concrete.
The four walls covering a blank and gland floor which is based upon years and years of denial and regret. The sealing however is nowhere to be found and all that you see when you look up is the clouds, peacefully floating around.
Some people say that if you drop a coin on the street and notice it, that you should pick it up. I say that you should leave it there because that very coin may be found by someone else. Someone who really needs it or just someone who is having a shitty day might find it and feel that somehow his or her luck is turning into something positive.
How unlikely as it seems I can only begin to explain the full circle that revolves around that petty little penny that is somehow going to get picked up. I also find pity in those basing all their youthfull existance picking up those small pieces of happiness just to throw it into someone elses face while they glare at you, forcing you to take action even though your lips are sealed and hands have been cut of.
Break it apart and try to analyze everything to become a complete madness in whatever form you wish. You may even want to consider the fact that there are simpler ways of getting back at those who made your tea taste like rotten fishsticks on a plate full of garbage.
Realism is just for the weak, it’s rules and it’s build on laws. An extremely well charactered person can find rules and laws even in the most caotic scenarios of imagination. Pessimism is just the start for the freethinker, they build the dreams that will follow.
Yes, yesterday I managed to haul my ass over to IKEA and buy some of the furniture I need. I ended up with a couch, two small “puffs” to go with it and a table to go with the couch. I put up the couch and the table yesterday but after that I was so fed up with b-rated tools provided that I decided to call it.
Though I’d do something that I rarely do - post some pictures.
Table, kind of easy to put to gether.
“Puffs”, haven’t put these up yet.
Couch, this was pure hell. The actual couch was wasy, but putting on the fabric.. Now THAT’S another story.
I’ve looked at some nice pillows to put in the couch aswell and some small things. I’ll post a picture of my livingroom when it’s done. 
It’s nice to be on my own again. Doing what I want and when I want, it’s freedom. Just to go to the store and buy groceries is fun actually, I’ve actually found joy in doing the disches and cooking dinner -even if it doesn’t really come out right. But I’ve managed to make two eatable dinners which wasn’t half fabricated or based on mincemeat.
Something else that has been rather interesting to not is how reluctant it has been to go outside. Just leave the computer and go outside, I did it yesterday. Didn’t really plan on doing anything just wanted to go outside and walk around for a bit and it was really nice. The sun was shining and there wasn’t to many people out. I think I just walked around for a coupple of hours until I came to a halt and though “I have no idea where I’m at right now” so I found my way to the nearest subway and went home.
I’ve really missed this, but I know that I’ve grown custom to the slack of living with my grandparents, the only thing I really did was my own laundry. Which by the way is awesome in the appartment since they have both a normal dryer and a dry-cabin. Was done with the laundry after just a coupple of hours. This compared to having to hang the laundry was a huge improvement and I’d say that the ratio is about 1:1000 and improved the SLA by about 97.1% from the total KPI which was at about 70% with a target of 75%. Overall, it’s good.
I’ve also noticed that I live like 100 meeters from Systembolaget and I’ve been there a coupple of times. The beer section is kind of thin and not really many fun beers there at all however, there are some old goodies there and some which are rather uncommon. It’s acceptable anyway I can always head over to Regeringsgatan if I’m out for something specific.
Something else that is rather funny is that I’ve become so easily distracted while writing. Haven’t managed to sit down and write in what feels like weeks. This post alone took about 6 days to finish.
Anyway, I’m out. Got to gather my strenght and pull through this day.
I’m currently drinking what’s my 7th cup of coffey, it’s monday and I’ve kind of enjoyed this day to be completely honest. This is not very common when it comes to monday since it’s almost always the most annoying day of the week.
First off, I got to see my collegues from back in Alvik. Since I’ve been working nights and such I haven’t really meet them during the time that they’ve been here. But it’s always nice to see them again, feels alittle more like home.
Helena is also here now which is kind of awesome cause I now have something to do, besides work (I can begin to imagine how many ways that will be misenterpreted, but please don’t).
The other units that was sitting in Alvik have moved here aswell, or what’s left of them atleast. So some more familliar faces to say hi to for me, feels good. I’ve felt kind of out of place here since I started, so many new faces and not so many welcoming ones. Overall, it’s really nice.
Oh, and I got to see Heike today aswell. Really nice to see her face again, there’s a strange glow about that person. Either it’s the memories of the good times when we worked together or something else, don’t know. All I know is that it was nice to see her.
Now, I finish up in about 40 minutes so I’m gonna start closing down the shop. Was planning on heading to IKEA today but it doesn’t look like I can get someone to tag along and it’s just plain booring to walk IKEA by yourself. So I guess that will wait.
Cherios!