In the ideal scenario, there are two kinds of people - the “thinker” and the “do’er”. The “thinker” in this case is a planning creature, he spends all night planning on tomorrow and what he’s going to do but, in the end he only manages to actually do a very small piece of what he had planned. Then we have the “do’er” he goes to bed without a single though in mind and without any plans for the days that will follow so when he wakes up and just starts the day doing what he wants to or what he’s obligated to.
The big difference in these two persons is that the “thinker” with his whole day planned will come home the next day and feel like he wasn’t enough or that he didn’t manage to do all the things he had planned. This might grow on his conceus a bit since well, he had planned them. The “do’er” on the other hand will come home after a day without any plans at all and feel like he accomplished alot even though he didn’t do more or even did less than the “thinker”, but since he didn’t make any plans at all he feels satisfied and proud over himself that he actually managed to pull all of those things off.
I can only begin to count all the times I’ve come home from work and felt like I’ve could’ve done more or could’ve done something better, not that it’s strange at all to have those feelings. There’s always something that could’ve been done better and there most certainly is something more that could’ve been done at all in the first place.
My job is different now, I don’t think about it after I’ve come home. Even if I miss being that dedicated to my job I’ve also come to appriciate the fact that I don’t feel like I have to think about it, or not that I have to think about it more that I did think about it.
My overall situation is different now, I actually can do whatever the fuck I want to now. Instead of being looked in my room infront of the computer. Offcourse, the computer is still one of my biggest interests so I still spend alot of time by it, but far from how much I used to do.
I feel alot better now, I actually enjoy my life much more now and I feel better about myself. I’ve started to think alot less than I used to and I’ve started to do more. With the appendice above I guess it’s only logical.